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 Hello, yeah...bet you're all surprised to see me after weeks and months of staying away, but let me get this clear its not because of depression or anything like that...than again...

 Ugh, enough stalling. Yes, I have been avoiding Deviantart because of my inner feelings, and I am just plain embarrassed about showing my face around here again...after weeks and weeks of staying offline, even after I promised to reward you guys with the sequel to Cryptor's Revenge, and I'm very sorry for that...I should have been more considerate about all of you..

 It's just that, things weren't going too well for me at the time, with Tumblr's ignorance and with no reviews on my fanfictions, I was starting to believe nobody knew I existed, which caused my depression to come out. 
 
 Yes, I know I've never seen depressed before even on here and through my work but...looks cant reveal everything...from the way you look at someone. I was afraid to tell people because I might have thought they would tell me to suck it up or stop complaining, you know, the way people mostly judge you out in the open when your sad or feeling down? 
 
 That was my anxiety, so I thought, with all the ignorance I was getting from both Tumblr and my stories, I just didn't feel like coming here would be any different, b-because...

 O-Oh who am I kidding, I-I cant take it anymore!

 All I want is for people to notice me, for me to be s-seen! I do the best I can, I really do, but no one ever blinks an eye! I just...want to feel noticed, t-to be cared for...

 I want to be s-somebody for Christs sake!

 G-Great now I'm bawling my eyes out here...ghnn

 I-I'm sorry guys...for wasting your t-time...you don't have to read this, y-you all have better things to do s-so please, carry on with your lives, you don't need to f-feel sorry, it's just m-me...

 J-Just know that there's always someone who l-loves you out there ok? All of you a-are someone to me, and b-be thankful, p-please...please...
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BlazingScarletAura's avatar
I go through the same thing ALL the time on my websites and in real life